In better news one of my absolute favorite bands released their newest album today!
It’s freaking amazing. Everyone needs to pick up a copy!!!
Archive for February, 2012
Did I do something to warrant this karma?
This week keeps handing me disappointments like it’s candy.
First of all if I’m writing right now I’m clearly not in Florida. Thanks to a panic attack. I woke up at 3:45am. I got dressed and as I was sitting at my vanity doing my hair I just felt it. To those who don’t suffer from them it might be easy to say “Oh just breathe and try and distract yourself” but to those of us who actually experience them it’s terrifying. I had to be out the door at 4am. I was still sitting in my kitchen, unable to move, at 4:30am. By then it was too late for me to be able to run to the airport. At the same time when that strikes you don’t know what triggered it and you sure as hell don’t want that happening at the airport, on the airplane or in Florida. So I had to make a terrible decision. I chose not to go. I lost all the money I put down for the trip. I lost a week away with two best friends. As if that wasn’t bad enough.
Since I was supposed to be in Florida this week I turned down a FREE meet and greet pass with my favorite band and tickets to their show in Kingston with my best friend. She asked someone else. Sucks for me that I’m in town now. On top of that I sold my tickets to Simple Plan this Thursday because, yet again, I wasn’t supposed to be in town. Now I find out that I might not be able to go to the Hedley show in Ottawa and if I do I’m most likely going alone. I really just want to cry.
A part of me is just really sad because from 2006-2010 I was having the time of my life. Don’t get me wrong. I’m still getting amazing opportunities and I’m still having fun but it’s not the same kind of fun. I miss roadtrips with my best friends. I miss getting in the car with them and driving and singing at the top of our lungs. I miss us being girls and running to the hotel room to get ready. I miss our squealing and our hysterical giggle fits. I see so many people my age who are still going with groups of their friends on roadtrips. And not just to one show. They’re doing what we used to do. They’re making a mini tour out of it and yet they work and balance all of this out too. The last time we did that was in May. Almost a year ago. I miss it terribly.
In summary…this week I get to do nothing remotely fun and go to work instead. I’ve told myself I need to be more positive. Hell I’m trying but sometimes life is cruel.
YES!
I don’t know when I plan on breathing between now and March 20th. I have so many things planned that I can’t even begin to contain my excitement.
I like 2012. So far(aside from a lack of Josh Groban thus far) it’s been a hell of a lot better than 2011. Don’t get me wrong…I loved the people I spent time with last year but it really had a seriously lack of adventure. People at my work think I’m crazy because they say I’m always out of town or doing something fun but they don’t understand that it’s how I’ve always been. Yes I went places last year but that was nothing compared to years prior to that. I’m used to getting in a car and roadtripping to the most asinine places for a night or two. That’s when I have the best memories. That’s when I enjoy the most laughs.
The other night we were driving to Jenns. The car was packed and the music was blaring. I made Mel pause the music so I could make an announcement. This is what we’ve been missing. Just jamming everyone in a car, putting on a playlist and going somewhere. It’s funny because I’m not someone who likes to be doing something all the time. Maybe that’s why I make up for it in random roadtrips. I don’t go out to bars or clubs or go bowling or out to movies very often. I pile all my money and do this instead.
After another successful DAHFA holiday I said goodbye to the girls who were driving home to the West Island and I stayed over with Jenn. We haven’t just talked in the two of us in forever. I don’t think we moved for 2 hours straight. Rinse and repeat the next morning. We decided since there are so many changes coming our way that for the next few months everything is a YES! We’re going to look for excuses to just do things. No more of this “Well I’m tired…” “Sorry I’m working” crap. We’re young. We should be having the most fun we can. We have the rest of our lives to work full time and sit around.
In other news I keep having dreams that I’m forgetting to pack anything for our trip to Florida. Last night I had a dream that I left my passport at home and when I opened my luggage at the airport i realized that everything I packed was for winter. Let’s not let that happen shall we?
I just wanted to blog quickly since it seems like I’ve been neglecting this one for my Tumblr. lately. I’ll blog more. I swear.
