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This summer is overwhelming. Last year I complained that nothing good was happening and this year I’m a bit stressed out with the amount of shows actually coming to and around Montreal. That being said I’ve decided I’m not missing out on any of them. You only live once so live it up.

First weekend of June was a roadtrip to Quebec City to see the Hedley guys. Probably one of the most epically amazing days of my life. When everything falls into place so smoothly then you know it’s going to turn things around. It was like 2005-2006  all over again. Something I didn’t think would be possible. It was an opportunity to escape with one of my closest friends and just be girls again. We danced in our hotel rooms. We laughed on the big screens. We giggled in parking lots. I loved every second of it. I don’t regret one second of the last 7 years when it comes to those 4 guys. They’ve changed my life in ways they don’t even know. Here’s to more days like that this summer.

Lately Jason has been trying to convince me to go on a spontaneous roadtrip with him. I always found excuses not to. Not because I didn’t want to be with him but because I felt like work, responsibilities and money would get in my way. On Thursday I attended a funeral. It was my first one in almost 10 years and hopefully my last one for at least another 10. It made me realized that this is the only life I’m going to get. I spend so much of it rationalizing everything and worrying about every detail. I need to get out of that mind set and just be me. So I told Jason to pick a place and we’d go. Fuck my credit card. I’ll figure that out as I go along. He booked NYC for one night and we hopped in a car less than 30 hours later and drove to a city that I’ve always wanted to experience. Even the border guard gave us a funny look when we said we were only going for one day. 12 hours of sitting in a car for about 24 hours of fun.

The drive was quick. We survived getting into the city and even managed to not be honked. We hopped on a bus tour, with the craziest tour guide ever, and got to learn about part of one of the most historical cities in the world. This place just oozes history and stories. The architecture was beautiful as well. It’s nice to see a city trying to preserve their buildings rather then just tearing them down and building new ones in that spot. We wandered Times Square and ate dinner at Olive Garden. We bumped into one of my favorite people on this planet, Josh Groban and I became 10 years old all over again. The next day we took a boat tour around the entire island of Manhattan and paid a visit to Lady Liberty. Smaller then I expected up close. Then we shopped, well I did, like idiots until it was time to leave. Somehow I did a 4 story Forever 21 and only left with two necklaces and a dress. Talent. The drive back was beautiful and everything about the trip just made me happy. I got to disappear for 48 hours with the love of my life. I got to do something so spontaneous that even I couldn’t wrap my head around where I was when I was standing in Times Square. Everyone needs to do this. Just get in your car and go. Book a last second vacation. Nothing feels better then the unexpected things in life.

This coming weekend is a trip to Belleville with a car full of people I love. Then I’m hopping over to Toronto for 3 days with friends to get a glimpse of the MMVA’s and just pay a visit to one of my favorite cities. I need this. I need to just escape from my thoughts for a few months. In August I’ll sit down and try to figure out parts of my life but right now I just need to be a kid again and smile at the little things.

“This next song goes out to all the beautiful girls in the room. I just want to remind you that beauty is so much more than what you see in the mirror, and don’t you ever let anybody else tell you different.” – Jacob Hoggard


Come away to the water

First of all…One Tree Hill I am NOT ready for you to end.

It’s so weird how we become so connected to characters on television, in movies and in books. It’s like they become parts of our lives and when a series ends we have to say goodbye as if they were old friends. When Harry Potter came to and end I sobbed throughout the last few pages because I knew I was saying goodbye to characters who I grew up getting to know. When Charmed ended I sobbed like a baby because it was the show that I sat down to watch every single Sunday night, without fail. Now unfortunately it looks like I’ll be saying goodbye again..and at 22 it doesn’t get any easier apparently. I’ll be the first to admit I’m a huge baby. Jason asked me the other day why I cry so much when I watch One Tree Hill. The easiest answer that comes to mind is that the writers and actors did such an incredible job of making me feel like I was there too. I started watching this show during the 3rd season. I had watched it on and off for the first two but I became completely hooked at the beginning of the 3rd. That’s 7 years. That’s a long time to become hooked on Brook, Nathan, Haley and company. It breaks my heart knowing that I have 2 weeks left and then it’ll be over for good and that reruns will be my only way of remembering. Not to mention that this weeks episode absolutely devastated me. I’ve cried a lot for this show but nothing like I did today. I’ve always been a fan of Dan. He’s too good a character. He’s so good that he makes everyone hate him. What they did to his character was the only thing they could do. It was the only way to bring closure to such a strong character. Can I just add that surprising us with Keith was absolute genius?! 2 more weeks…argh.

In other news I woke up today to news of freaking AEROSMITH coming to Laval. My head exploded. Being so immersed in the music industry I get asked a lot who my favorite band is. I always say Hedley but this morning I was really thinking about it and I couldn’t choose between these two bands because they were a part of my life during two completely different times. Aerosmith was my childhood band. I grew up listening to them being blasted throughout the house by my parents and my brother. They were the very first concert I ever attended at 12. It was love at first experience. At 15 I was introduced to Jacob Hoggard and Hedley and that love affair began throughout my teens and now. It’s funny because when you really look at it, Jacob isn’t so far from Steven Tyler. Both have incredibly unique voices and are killer entertainers.  Both bands impacted my life in ways I wish I could put down in words. I’ve been waiting to see Aerosmith again since that very first time. I absolutely cannot wait until July 10th.

This summer is shaping up quite nicely!! Jason and I booked Disney for a week in May. Hedley postponed their Quebec City show for June 1st. The New Cities and Marianas Trench announced a festival in Belleville which I think I’m going to attend since my parents will be 20 minutes away in Picton at that exact time. After that we have the usual summer festivals and I’ve heard a lot of rumors out of the Hedley camp. Then to end off the summer I’ll be heading back to PEI with Jason for a week to visit my brother and just relax in my favorite part of Canada. I couldn’t be more excited.

Shipwrecked 2012

I could write pages on these last couple of days but I’ll spare you all the details.

I’m just going to sum it up by saying that it will be 7 years in July that I was first introduced to Hedley/Jake. It will be 7 years in September that I got to meet them for the very first time.Nothing has changed. My crazy love for those 4 boys is the exact same.

Jason and I were driving back from Ottawa yesterday and he turned to me and said he understands now. He understands how this is an escape for me. A chance to sing at the top of my lungs, surrounded by friends who have experienced all of this with me. A chance to dance like a fool and smile for 2 hours straight. A chance to catch a smile and feel your heart warm. I’ve had a lot of people ask my how I can see the same concert over and over again. I can ask them how they can go to the same club or bar every single weekend. It’s the same thing. Everyone has that one thing in their life that makes them happier then anything else. That one place that makes them smile more then they thought possible. Hedley does that to me.

On Monday my nerves were through the roof. I had an interview with My Name is Kay and Classified. Then I had a Hedley meet and greet. Then I had the show. Those butterflies from excitement can’t be replaced for anything in the world. The interviews went perfectly. I got to speak with two very down to earth, genuine artists who were just grateful to be a part of this tour. I also got to stand backstage and listen to I Won’t Let You Go being soundchecked. Those are moments I’ll keep locked away forever. The meet and greet was great.They know how to make every single fan feel like they’re uniquely special and that’s a talent in itself. We had great seats for the show. Right next to the catwalk, a few rows from the stage. The show in itself wasn’t my favorite of theirs. I saw a side of maturity from them that I’ve never seen before though. There was a greater number of ballads which showcased Jakes voice and a few upbeat songs to get the crowd going. I teared up during Old School. They had a slideshow of some of their past moments and I remembered almost every single one of them. It made me realize how far they’ve come and how much I’VE grown up as well. The show ended with Trip which was a great choice as well.

On Wednesday I almost didn’t go to the show. Thank God Jason pushed me. I would normally never miss a show but I’ve been feeling on and off lately and I don’t like pushing it. Somehow we snuck from the 13th row to the 2nd with some of our other Hedley family. The crowd wasn’t as amazing but for some reason I enjoyed the show more. Maybe it’s because I had the chance to dance and just be with people who understood all of it.

These past 2 days were perfect. I wouldn’t change a thing. I also wouldn’t change how I am at shows. As a girl we have a stereotype. “Groupie”. Fine label it whatever you want. Then you can also give a label to those who go to bars every weekend. Or those who love partying. Not everyone goes for the same reasons. I’ve, unfortunately, been exposed to a lot of things I never wanted to see. But I go for the music. I avoid anything else. Sometimes you build friendships. Sometimes you get to know people. It happens when you “work” in the industry and attend as many shows as I do. The difference is can you be that girl who stands out and demands respect? Or are you going to be one who believes your special because you’re easy. The choice is yours but please don’t ever think that you’re any different then any other city. I’m happy with who I am. I don’t care if I chose the harder road. I feel for those girls that need that recognition and who need to feel special if only for a couple of minutes by doing that to themselves. Maybe one day you’ll grow up enough to learn the difference.


“Invincible is a song about surviving and overcoming adversity often times in a very underdog sense. You sit down sometimes and you feel like the whole world is coming down on you. It’s that ability to stand up and say I’m worth more than this and I’m a lot stronger then I think I am. Sometimes you need to be able to tell yourself those things and get up and close your eyes and have faith in yourself to push yourself.” – Jacob Hoggard

I had to post this quote. As someone who has been struggling for the past year, this song has become one of my escapes. When everything gets too hard and I feel like I’m crashing down I blast this song and disappear into for a few minutes. It makes me believe that I have the strength to overcome anything.

This is why this band has been a part of my life for 7 years.

QC Cancelled.

Let me clear something up right away. I’m not a heartless bitch. There.

Moving on.

I’ve been looking forward to today since November when Jenn and I woke up at 6am in Vancouver to buy our VIP package for Quebec. I got the tickets in the mail in January. Meet and Greet. Front row. Best friend. When Florida got cancelled I spent every day counting down the moments that would bring me closer to today. I made a playlist. I packed my bag. I picked up some food for the road. I booked a non-refundable hotel. I set my alarm and right before I went to bed I found out the show was cancelled. If I hear one more person say “You have to realize Jakes sick” I might scream. I want nothing more then to see him healthy. A sick Jake isn’t the same on stage. He thrives off his energy and is who he is because of it. It would break my heart to see him struggle on stage. I’d rather see him rest up and come back 100% in a few days.

That being said that doesn’t mean that I’m not devastated. I think anyone who is truly looking forward to something has every single right to be disappointed. Especially when this comes not even two weeks after I couldn’t go to Florida. It’s the whole “Out of 30+ dates WHAT are the chances?” type of thing. What breaks my heart is that I’ve been dying for a trip with one of my best friends. Just like the old days. With this show cancelled and the date being postponed it looks like there’s a good chance that she’ll be out of town when the new date comes around. I think that sucks more than anything.

Anyways I just wanted to ramble and rant a little bit.

I guess the bright side of this(if I can find someone to go with if Jenn is out of town) is that I haven’t experienced it yet. Some of it would be over by now but it isn’t because of the cancellation. So I still have it to look forward to all over again.

And so begins the countdown to the Montreal show in exactly one week….

Mid October Update

First of all…Habs it would mean the world to me if you could win a second game this season.  Maybe? I still miss Saku.

I’ve been so overwhelmed trying to jam everything into my schedule before leaving for Vancouver for 2 weeks. Also let me just say that anxiously counting down for something is torture. I keep dreaming that I’m there already or at the airport or that I’m packing my luggage. Then I wake up and I have a week to go. That being said I have a full 7 days in front of me so I know it should go by fairly quickly.

Tomorrow is my foot tattoo. I’m absolutely terrified about the pain but I’ve been wanting this for 3 years now and I have to suck it up and just do it. I know how happy I’ll be once it’s done. After that Jason and I are headed to trade in super old nintendo and gameboy things in return for N64 games. When did I turn into a nintendo geek? I found our old N64 in the closet the other day and so many memories came rushing back to me. I spent a good handful of my nights as a kid playing Super Nintendo & N64 with my brother. We owned at Kirby let me just say. So Jason and I are going to revamp it and add some classic games. Then this summer I’ll be picking up the Super Nintendo from my brother. Apparently we’re planning on having a gaming room when we move out. Goodbye boyfriend.

I still have 3 shifts before I leave next Thursday and that includes an incredibly fun training session early Sunday morning. Sarcasm. That’s okay though because 24 hours and one Live Nation shift and I’m GONE for 12 days. Reunited with friends in Van and my best friend. I did my Halloween shopping last week and I’m super excited about the costumes I chose. I love getting dressed up. I really have no clue how I plan on packing all this stuff though. I’m the queen of overpacking.

I’m so antsy to get back to Vancouver. While I’d never ever want to live there(too far from home), I absolutely LOVE visiting it. Jason and I have also been seriously discussing something for the last couple of days and it looks like it might just happen. I don’t want to say anything until we find a way to make all of it work.

What else?

Oh yes..Hedley will be in town on November 10th. First time in over a year. The best part? I’m not even sure I got a spot to see them. That feels good when I’ve supported the band for over 6+ years. I realize fans come with success but I wish there was something there that guaranteed that those fans that have been there from the beginning aren’t left out on the street. Their brand new album comes out while I’m in Vancouver so I’ll be grabbing that before coming home.

Now that I’ve rambled I get to go make a list of places I want to visit in Vancouver.

But I found the strength inside…

I wrote a long blog post  2 months ago about how I’ve used Hedley’s music during some of my most difficult days, weeks, months.  They’ve been the thing that I’ve turned to for the last 6 years. They say music saves you and I really, truly, believe it. I’ve been struggling a lot over the last 4 months with my own personal demons and when I first heard Invincible last month I actually laughed because they had done it again. They’d written something that I knew I’d be able to blast and use to make myself feel less alone with my struggles.

I cried watching this music video today. Not only does it help everyone(including myself) understand that they’re NOT alone but it’s inspiring.

It’s crazy how much these 4 have matured since “On My Own”. I’m so proud to call myself a lifelong fan. I can’t wait to sit down for that interview with them on their new tour and finally get the chance to let them know how much they’ve changed my life for the better.

If things start splitting at the seams and now it’s tumbling down hard

For as long as I can remember I’ve suffered from anxiety. It’s lingered in the back of my mind and taken over when I let myself become vulnerable. Over the last month it’s completely taken over my life. I haven’t been able to motivate myself, concentrate or do everyday activities that used to make me happy. It’s been a struggle and at times I found myself feeling like I couldn’t get back to normal. I feel like I’m losing who I am. I thought I’d never be able to wake up and be relaxed and calm again. It’s a terrifying feeling and it’s emotionally and physically exhausting. Many people believe it’s just a state of mind and they can’t understand how anyone can allow it to reach these types of levels. I’m not even going to try to explain to those people. It’s something that only those who suffer from anxiety can really understand.

I’m an incredibly lucky person. I have a family who would do anything for me, best friends who make me laugh like nobody else and a boyfriend who I’m head over heels in love with. I have a roof above my head, a great education and a promising future. I’ve decided I need to gain control. It’s a lot easier said than done. You can’t just sit down and go “Okay well enough of that! Time to get back to a life with no stress.” It’s all about controlling your mind, and when it’s racing a mile a minute that is not the easiest thing to do. It brings upon symptoms that make you want to curl into a ball and cry. I’m not afraid to say it.

The first thing I had to realize was that this wasn’t life threatening. This was something I could eliminate from my life if I learned how. In order to do that I had to forget about it completely and stop thinking of it. I had to find something that would take my mind off of it completely. I immediately turned to music. People say that music saves your life. I believe that. My life revolves around the melodies, the lyrics and the chords. When I’m singing at the top of my lungs NOTHING can bother me. Some people sit in front of the water and relax. Other people take long walks to clear their head. I’ve always turned my iPod on and lost myself in the music.

The funny thing is I came to the realization that music was going to save me when I turned on “Never Too Late” by Hedley. That has always been a theme song for me. Since the song was first played live in Montreal back in October of 2007 on Mackay street I clung to the lyric “Find a way to smile and never let it get away.” As I sit here, song blaring, I realize how much this band has saved me since 2004. There isn’t a part of my life they haven’t had a massive impact on.

They’re the reason I know which direction my career is going in. They made me realize that I want to spend my life at concerts and surrounded by artists. I chose to attend Trebas because of them and get a job with CONFRONT Magazine as well as Live Nation. They’re the reason I have the best friends any girl could ask for. I became close to people in high school because of their music. I met some of my best friends directly through the band because I started attending shows all the time. Believe it or not they’re the reason I learned how to be sane around the opposite sex. I used to shut down when a guy would speak to me and I spent most of my time being perfectly happy to be single. Then I started attending their shows and making a handful of great guy friends and from there I learned that I had nothing to be shy about. Everything links back to them. My taste in music changes on a daily basis. My favorite bands vary depending on what I’m listening to that year. Six years later I can honestly say that no one will take the top spot from them. I owe so much to their music. I’ve had the chance to watch them grow and in turn I’ve grown with them.

I’m not asking anyone reading this to understand. The only way you can is if music has touched your life in a way that is indescribable. I’ve wanted to write something like this for awhile and I got the chance when their music saved me yet again.

I wasn’t going to post this blog. I was going to keep this as my secret struggle but I finally realized that this isn’t something to be ashamed of. Everyone has something they have to battle with in their life. This is mine. I still have an immense up hill battle. Learning to wake up without being afraid is a big step. Learning how to forget the past and look ahead can be even scarier. I need to get back to being who I used to be. I don’t want to lose myself. All I can do is turn up the music.

30 Day Music Challenge: Day 15

Day 15 – A song that describes you:

Unfortunately I had to double up on an artist for this challenge. I didn’t want to but when it comes to Hedley it was bound to happen. I chose this particular song, not so much because it describe me as a person but more because it’s an attitude I try to live by.

I can be pessimistic. Sometimes I find myself wrapped up in it and I have to remind myself that it takes a lot more energy to be negative then it does to be positive. I try and live by the motto in this song. “Find a way to smile and never let it get away.” Instead of getting discouraged and letting the bad things win out, get up and try again. Never give up. It’s the strongest message out there. People who give up make it nowhere. People who live their lives looking at all the bad instead of the good stay miserable forever.

Not to mention this song is so uplifting and hands down one of my favorites of all time.

I decided to post a video with lyrics included because it can help prove this post.

“Never Too Late” – Hedley

2010 Year in Review

Right before ringing in the New Year I always write a blog that summarizes every month from that year. It’s a way for me to remember what these last 12 months brought and to help me see how I’ve grown and what needs to be changed.

As I’ve told several people I was not a fan of 2010 in the least. I had my reasons but I have no problem ringing in 2011. I already have a feeling it’s going to be amazing. I’m ready to put this year behind me and start fresh.

This is always a long one so props to whoever actually goes through this.

January 2010:

I rang in the New Year with a large group of people at my ex-boyfriends place. It was an interesting night to say the least. Let’s just say I don’t want to start this New Year crying like I did with the last. It was a fitting start to the year.  Most of this month was spent hibernating from winter. I had a good friend from Toronto come in and play a show. It was my first time getting the chance to see his band live and not the last during the year.

Best part of the month:

Dance circle in the middle of the bar during the Monday Rose show

New Years Eve.^

February 2010:

February sticks out in my mind for an incredibly dorky reason. I had heard people raving about the book “Shutter Island” so I decided to pick up a copy. I read the book in one sitting and was officially addicted to Dennis Lehane novels. I spent the rest of the year reading all of his novels. I was hooked. Not to mention the movie was amazing. Another big point that sticks out in my mind was it was the month that Jenn & I took the right path towards our future. We set up a date at Trebas and met with the director and decided that we were ready to go back to school in “Music Business Management.” This was the smartest decision I’ve made in years. I also spent most of the month watching the Olympics. I remember Hedley playing the closing ceremonies and how proud I was knowing they were being broadcasted all over the world to millions of people. There was also a couple of girls nights over the month including one at Lauras where we ate over 6 pounds of food and one at Lisa’s the day before Valentines day to have a “Single Ladies” night even if I wasn’t. We all enjoyed a Bulldogs game together front row. That’s how every hockey game should be spent. The end of the month was the very best. Sitting on the floor, face painted, with Laura & Jenn watching Canada win gold in hockey. For the first time in my life I wanted to give Sidney Crosby a huge hug.

Best part of the month:

Walking out of Trebas and to Nickels with Jenn. Mutual smiles plastered across our faces & the knowledge that we had finally taken a step in the right direction for our future.

Canada wins gold at the olympics!^

March 2010:

This month started off with The New Cities busking for change at the Eaton Center.  That was one of the only times we saw those boys in 2010. The most random day of the year has to be the day we cleaned my exs’ apartment. It started off with us not being able to get in (thankfully jenn was a locksmith in her last life) and when we finally got in we spent a good 2 hours cleaning. Let’s just say it was not a livable environment. I’ll never forget Jenn opening up the microwave and screaming or Mel taking on behind the couch. That was followed by an amazing evening at Beaver Lake and dinner. I can’t say this enough but those girls are my life. A couple of days later I sat down with Elias, a band we met through the Februarys, for an interview at Club Soda. Great guys and the start of a really fun friendship. The month ended off with a roadtrip with Jenn & Mel to Trois Rivieres to see The New Cities. The show stands out in my mind because it was the first time we saw “Take it Back, Cheat Again” live. A favorite for the three of us. Athena came to town a couple of days later to experience her very first Habs/Sens game. Free food & a shut out win for the Sens. Not too shabby for her.

Best part of the month:

Blaring Waves “Going to California” with Mel & Jenn on the way to 3Rivieres at the end of the month and singing along at the top of our lungs.Cleaning fairies. The best friends a girl could ask for.

April 2010:

Everyone knows that I’m happiest when I’m on the road with my best friends. At the beginning of April I got to spend 4 straight days with Mel & Jenn and it was one of the best moments of the year for me. Dave and his band were on tour with Faber Drive(one of my oldest & favorite bands) so we worked out a little road trip schedule. On April 6th we hopped in the car and headed to Trois Rivieres where we did merch for the guys and then enjoyed a very intimate show with Faber. We also got to meet Mike which was the start of another great friendship. We were also taught how to be responsible. Insert eye roll here. The next day we headed back to Montreal for Hedley at the Bell Center where I got to see my favorite band play the Bell Center for the very first time. Seeing them go from playing in front of 50 people, 6 years ago, to that was amazing. Not to mention the entire night was a blast. The show was followed by a trip to Radio Lounge where The New Cities were bartending and Frank almost killed me with too much vodka. The last day of our mini roadtrip took us to Drummondville. This was probably my favorite and least favorite moment of the trip. We had a blast doing merch again and the moment with Faber on stage was priceless. The end of the night ruined that entire day for me. I look back on that day and see how incredibly stupid I was to stay in such a terrible relationship. You live and learn. Luckily on the car ride back I cried for most of it but I had my two best friends there to keep me smiling despite all the shit. “I’ll bring them. It’ll make their lives.” Uh huh. Despite everything I had an incredible month with best friends and lots of music.

Best part of the month:

I’m going to take a quote out of my blog to represent my favorite moment. “Hedley performing Old School. I grabbed onto Jenn who grabbed onto Laura who grabbed onto Melissa. We swayed together and belted out the lyrics to a song that was “the soundtrack of our summer” during 2007. There’s a moment during that song where the music gets intense and he starts to sing about the days we went crazy and the nights wild and hazy and during that moment I found myself completely forgetting about everything around me. All I was aware of was my best friends holding onto me and the music taking over every inch of me. I turned to see Melissa crying. When people ask me why I go to so many shows, it’s for those moments. Where you truly get lost in the music”

Doing merch in Drummondville^

May 2010:

On the first of the month I sat down with Jarek from the Johnstones for, what has to be, one of the best interviews I’ve done for CONFRONT. I was worried I wouldn’t be able to get any serious answers out of him but he ended up being fascinating and genuinely hilarious. That was followed by 3 hours at Van Houtte with Jenn & Mel. I feel like that became our official place to just talk. I remember spending their entire set smiling. No one knows how to make a person smile quite like Ryan Long. While I’m still baffled by their music I can’t help but admit that they put on one of the most entertaining sets I’ve ever seen. After that set we went out for Daves friends birthday at a club in the Old Port which was interesting. The baseball quote came out of that night. Enough said. May 8th was Faber Drive, The New Cities, The Mission District & Jesse Labelle at Club Soda. That day was full of amazing memories. Riding the elevator with Jesse Labelles band. Old muscle men knocking at the hotel with Athena. I think this was one of the days I laughed the most. I sat down with Faber Drive on their spanking new tour bus for an interview that day as well as with Dave from The New Cities. Oh F’GN. The Habs made it to the 2nd round of the playoffs and then the 3rd where they got eliminated. That was the furthest I’ve ever seen them go. On may 18th-20th Jenn and I took a trip to Toronto to cover a good friend of ours band at a benefit show for CONFRONT Magazine. We had a blast documenting the whole day and writing about it and then spending that night with ARi eating pizza & watching movies. The next day we went to our hotel and that night Jenn & I downed a bottle of chardonnay and laughed to the point of pain. It was then that I finally dealt with the thing that had been bothering me for months. It was honestly the best moment and having my best friend there with me to laugh moments later was perfect. We celebrated Lauras birthday towards the end of the month and I just surrounded myself with my best friends.

Best part of the month:

Laughing hysterically over peach chardonnay on the floor of the hotel room with Jenn.

The night of the peach chardonnay in Toronto^

June 2010:

I hit a bit of a low period around this time. With the breakup and my mom in the hospital I didn’t have the best month of my life. I did a lot of leaning on friends around this time. Jenn & I decided to put together a summer to do list of places we had to visit and things we had to do. That was what got me through all of it. Knowing that I had all of that to look forward to. At the beginning of the month, during Grand Prix weekend, we spent the weekend with Mike who was visiting from Toronto with the Faber Drive boys. We took a trip to Banquise and then to La Ronde where I screamed like a lunatic for most of the day and Mike rolled his eyes out of boredom. Nice opposite reactions. We went to St-Hubert later that night and just laughed. The next day we celebrated Lisas birthday and enjoyed Grand Prix festivities before we went to see Faber play Crescent street. Then we went for birthday drinks at Foufs. June was also the month Jenn & I officially registered for Trebas. I also stupidly let my emotions get the better of me and I tried to make a friendship work. Big mistake that would drag out for another 2 months & continue to screw with my emotions. At the end of the month I decided to take a random roadtrip with Jenn to see Cute is What we Aim for in Ottawa. Discussing the industry with Shaant after the show was a very neat experience. We also celebrated Jenns birthday at St-Sulpice. I’m pretty sure we met Lucifer this month. I also got to see The Spill Canvas live for the first time. Amazing. Towards the end of the month I interviewed another favorite band of mine “Thrice”. The month ended off with a road trip to 3Rivieres to see The New Cities. There was a lot of waiting in line & French that day. Not to mention rain. That was the last time we saw them live. It was a sad realization that we were done with their music. 3 years of great memories and unfortunately it was time to stop.

Best part of the month:

1)Grand Prix weekend – The two Indian guys I jokingly waved at who didn’t catch the joke and sat down next to us and stared until we finally left. Lesson learned. 2)Shaant falling asleep against the wall in the venue. 3)Walking through the tunnel, arm in arm with two best friends, in Trois Rivieres.La Ronde with Mike & the ladies^

July 2010:

July started off beautifully. Mel, Jenn & I roadtripped to Brockville to see the Faber Drive guys play. We didn’t know a soul there. It was the best feeling. We danced like complete idiots and had a blast just losing our minds. It’s the best way to de-stress. Let’s just say “When I’m With You” became the memorable song of the year. My brother visited for a week in the middle of the month and we spent almost every day together lying in the sun or going to the Jazz Festival. It’s always so great when he comes into town. It’s like he never left. Warped Tour is always a huge part of the summer for the girls & I. This year the lineup was crazy. The highlight was finally getting to see The Rocket Summer live. I’ve waited 6 years to see them play and they did not disappoint. Minus the heat stroke it was a successful day. When Parc Jean Drapeau cleared out we went to the tourbuses with Fight Fair and hung out and met some really neat people. We got off the bus at one point to watch the La Ronde fireworks. It was neat to turn to my left and to my right and to see everyone getting off their buses to watch as well. The next morning we woke up and celebrated Mels birthday with a huge breakfast and Toy Story hats. I also enjoyed an indoor picnic with James, Agnes and Mel. “SILVER!!!!” Towards the end of the month Mel & I offered to cover Heavy Metal MTL for CONFRONT. While it was a slightly terrifying experience it was also a lot of fun. I got to speak with Megadeth, Airbourne and others. I will never forget Lamb of Gods set. Mel and I were sitting backstage by the water and I was sure the world was coming to an end.

Best part of the month:

Feeling like an illegal immigrant while riding in the back of a truck with Mike Posner and other warped tour bands.

Brockville show^

August 2010:

Easily the busiest month of the year.  Unfortunately while this month brought great memories it also brought one of the most difficult moments of my life. Growing up I was always a cat person. When we got Buddy when I was 8 years old he immediately became my closest friend. In the span of a week I found out we couldn’t cure his eye ulcer without removing his eye or spending thousands of dollars on different treatments that we just couldn’t afford. Just like that we had to put him down. It still kills me even thinking about it. I couldn’t have asked for a better sidekick for 13 years.  Writing that made me start crying. I guess I try not to think about it. I got the phone call that he had been put down while I was on the bus to Toronto with Jenn, Mel & Agnes. I silently cried for a few minutes before the girls noticed. While it was painful to be away from home it was also the best idea. They got me through it. We arrived in Toronto and had a great time shopping and eating out. The next day we got ready and went to stand in line for Something Corporate. This band had a massive impact on my teen years. When they broke up I was devastated so when they announced a reunion tour I couldn’t miss it. I wish I could properly describe what it was like to finally see them live. Hands down the best show of my life and I say that without any hesitation. Finally hearing Konstantine live. Witnessing Andrew sing Hurricane. I wish I could go back to that day over and over again. The next day Mel, Jenn, my parents & myself drove down to PEI for 2 weeks. Spending 2 weeks by the ocean with my best friends. Crawling down sand dunes. Hanging out with Anne. Visiting Ripleys & the wax museum. Tanning for hours. Set eating hours. Hanging out with goats. “May the Bench be with you.”  Colonel Mustard Slowdown.That week was spent eating too much candy, tanning non stop and laughing.

Best part of the month:

Andrew sitting down at his piano and playing Konstantine live for the first time in 5 years during the encore.

Trip to PEI^

September 2010:

The month started off with Hedley in Gatineau. I was originally supposed to shoot the show but it down poured so I watched it from the front row. I stood there for 4 hours, drenched to the bone but enjoying every second of it. I’ll never forget watching Jake sit down at the piano and start singing “Perfect” with the rain falling. I can’t even describe how incredible that was. That was followed by Faber Drive in Bromont one day later. We got to spend the day watching horses & cows & pigs and sheep. Then we watched the show on a 12 foot stage. We barely got any sleep that night and we were woken up at 5am to go to the airport for VANCOUVER! This was probably the best trip I’ve ever taken in my life. We got the chance to stay at an incredibly gorgeous hotel, explore the city and spend 8 nights with good friends. Every night was spent with a group of people, drinking, dancing and just having a good time. I can’t thank those boys enough for letting us stay for so long and for being amazing & patient tour guides for that time. The trip was originally supposed to be 7 days but was extended to 10 when I came down with an awful cold. That was the only crappy part but despite it I still had a blast. We visited the guys studio and listened to some of their new stuff. Jenn & I travelled to see Hedley play at Deer Lake Park and I shot my very first show for CONFRONT. Standing up against the stage with Rosin staring down at me and Jake just a few inches away…amazing. Luckily the cold cleared up so we were able to enjoy hip hop karaoke night, trivia night and many others. I also got to celebrate my 21st surrounded by the most amazing people at a karaoke bar with a Backstreet Boys song dedicated to me and a Final Fantasy birthday cake. The last night we spent there was filled with singing by the piano, darts & cuddle parties. I’ve never been so sad getting onto a plane to head home. When we got back I celebrated my 21st again with my best friends at a hotel & St-Sulpice.

Best part of the month:

Sitting by the piano in Vancouver on our last night listening to Lucas play while all of us sang along.

Hip hop karaoke night in Vancouver^

October 2010:

The month involved a lot of work for CONFRONT. At the beginning of the month I met up with Lili at Club Soda to shoot her interview with Jonas. Right after that I ran and met up with Mel to shoot her interview with We Are Wolves.  The best part was we got completely lost on the way there and ended up walking around Park Ex in the dark. Very safe. After that, when we finally got off the bus at the right stop, we walked down the sketchiest deserted back roads to a run down venue where we did the interview in the basement. I have no idea how we survived. We said goodbye to one of our other halves around the beginning of the month when Laura moved to Jasper for the year. I miss her every day:(A few days later Jenn & I had our orientation at Trebas. It was so strange to get back into the rhythm of school. I had to learn how to listen all over again. Then during the first week we began school. We immediately settled in to the subjects(the 9am Marketing classes took some getting used to) and we met some amazing people who we’d be taking the 12 month journey with. Some of the Vancouver boys were on tour across Eastern Canada and made a stop in Montreal to play at a smaller bar. We spent the night of the 6th with them enjoying a very intimate show where Nathalie Marge Bazigma was born. On the 24th I sat down with Sean from 3OH!3 while Jenn shot our interview. After that I shot their set(my first venue photography experience) and enjoyed the opening bands including hellogoodbye and Down with Webster. Jenn, Lis & I attended our first hockey game at the end of the month where we kicked the Islanders asses and we all screamed like men. We ended off the month with a Disney princess themed Halloween at Jenns.

Best part of the month:

Standing right up against the stage, waiting for 3OH!3 to come out. Turning around and seeing 1200 people singing along to the song being played on the overhead radio. Unreal.

Halloween 2010^

November 2010:

As always November was the quietest month of the year. Everything was focused on school with endless mid terms and assignments. Jenn won a contest at the beginning of the month to see Faber Drive play a very exclusive show at the release party of a new cell phone. We were treated to free hors d’oeuvres, free coat check and free drinks. Not to mention there was 6 fans in attendance and the rest of the people there were men in business suits. Always a good time. I interviewed a favorite band of mine growing up, Good Charlotte, towards the beginning of the month. I was blown away by how down to earth and completely unchanged Benji Madden was despite all his success.  On the 16th I attended the Flyers game with Jason where we kicked Phillys ass yet again:) Towards the end of the month we attended the Habs Blood drive.

Best part of the month:

First date with Jason to the movies<3

Meeting Hal Gill at the Habs blood drive^

December 2010:

This month was fairly straight forward. If my time wasn’t spent with my friends or with Jason it was spent at school or at work. I had an amazing Christmas celebration with 4 of my best friends at my house. We danced like idiots, we ate 45 pounds of food and we exchanged presents. Most importantly we laughed like hyenas all night. I also got to attend the Trans-Siberian Orchestra with Jason which was absolutely amazing. Christmas this year was one I’d like to forget. While I had a great time with friends, the family scene was chaotic and I’d like to just forget about it.

Best part of the month:

Laughing hysterically over Styrofoam antics on DAHFA Christmas

Trans-Siberian Orchestra in Ottawa with Jason^

I say this every year but I grew up a lot in these past 12 months. I learned a lot of lessons. This has been a fairly tough year for me. Like everyone says..the only way to learn is to make mistakes and I made a fair share this year. I tried to write about all the positive parts of the year because to focus on the negative would be very debbie downer of me. There were aspects of this year that I loved. I was blessed to meet some amazing people and to form a relationship I would’ve never dreamed of with someone I truly love. It took a lot of shit and a lot of pain for me to get to this point but I’ve made it out of 2010 and I’m ready to start a brand new year. I know 2011 is going to bring great things. I’ve surrounded myself with people I love and who love me and I’m ready to take on the next 12 months with a smile.

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