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“Invincible is a song about surviving and overcoming adversity often times in a very underdog sense. You sit down sometimes and you feel like the whole world is coming down on you. It’s that ability to stand up and say I’m worth more than this and I’m a lot stronger then I think I am. Sometimes you need to be able to tell yourself those things and get up and close your eyes and have faith in yourself to push yourself.” – Jacob Hoggard

I had to post this quote. As someone who has been struggling for the past year, this song has become one of my escapes. When everything gets too hard and I feel like I’m crashing down I blast this song and disappear into for a few minutes. It makes me believe that I have the strength to overcome anything.

This is why this band has been a part of my life for 7 years.


But I found the strength inside…

I wrote a long blog post  2 months ago about how I’ve used Hedley’s music during some of my most difficult days, weeks, months.  They’ve been the thing that I’ve turned to for the last 6 years. They say music saves you and I really, truly, believe it. I’ve been struggling a lot over the last 4 months with my own personal demons and when I first heard Invincible last month I actually laughed because they had done it again. They’d written something that I knew I’d be able to blast and use to make myself feel less alone with my struggles.

I cried watching this music video today. Not only does it help everyone(including myself) understand that they’re NOT alone but it’s inspiring.

It’s crazy how much these 4 have matured since “On My Own”. I’m so proud to call myself a lifelong fan. I can’t wait to sit down for that interview with them on their new tour and finally get the chance to let them know how much they’ve changed my life for the better.

It’s that time again….new music releases!!!

The thing that makes me happiest? New music.

So far in the last week there’s been a ton of new stuff to put on my iPod.

First and foremost…HEDLEYS BACK. I love when those boys are in the studio because it always means that snippets of songs are going to be leaked and sure enough last night on a twitcam the boys showed fans a brand new song called “Stormy.” I missed it but a friend sent me the MP3 in and in my eyes these boys can do no wrong. There are a lot of upcoming albums but NONE get me more excited then new Hedley. I can’t believe they’re on album number 4. It feels like yesterday that I ran out to buy album #1. The only video I could find to post in this blog is a messy filmed version of “Stormy” but it involves Jake on the piano so it’s gold.

Next was the release of Jack’s Mannequin new single “Racing Thoughts.” Here’s another artist that I feel can do absolutely no wrong. When you take Andrew McMahon and place him at a piano, magic happens. I heard this song for the first time at his show at the beginning of the month and now I finally got the chance to hear the recorded version which is just as incredible. The best news of all was that his 3rd, and newest, record will be released on October 4th. This fall is going to be so incredible. I’m already overloaded thinking of all the good music coming my way.

Third up was Marianas Trench. I have such an unbelievable love/hate relationship with this band. I’ve been following them since before their first album was released. I adore their music. Everything about it is unique. The problem is that I can’t stand Josh Ramsey as a human. As a musician he’s pure genius but as a human I find him to be a bit of a prick. Now that’s just my opinion and he might not be but the way he presents himself on stage has always bothered me. That will never stop me from supporting his music though. I won’t miss a concert and I will always buy their CD’s because I respect him unreal amounts as an artist and I do wish MT loads of success. That being said I adore the new single. Josh hits notes and sings in a way that other musicians could only dream of doing. Their last album was a million times better than their first IMO so I can only imagine what the third will be like.

Lastly is the release of The Midway States second album. I love these guys. I wish them so much success in their journey in the industry. Nathan has one of the most haunting voices I have ever heard. Anything with piano gives me goosebumps and well that’s what most of their songs consist of. I had their first album on repeat for quite some time and I actually enjoy this one even more. If you haven’t purchased it then I highly suggest getting your butt over to iTunes or HMV and grabbing a copy of “Paris Or India”

If things start splitting at the seams and now it’s tumbling down hard

For as long as I can remember I’ve suffered from anxiety. It’s lingered in the back of my mind and taken over when I let myself become vulnerable. Over the last month it’s completely taken over my life. I haven’t been able to motivate myself, concentrate or do everyday activities that used to make me happy. It’s been a struggle and at times I found myself feeling like I couldn’t get back to normal. I feel like I’m losing who I am. I thought I’d never be able to wake up and be relaxed and calm again. It’s a terrifying feeling and it’s emotionally and physically exhausting. Many people believe it’s just a state of mind and they can’t understand how anyone can allow it to reach these types of levels. I’m not even going to try to explain to those people. It’s something that only those who suffer from anxiety can really understand.

I’m an incredibly lucky person. I have a family who would do anything for me, best friends who make me laugh like nobody else and a boyfriend who I’m head over heels in love with. I have a roof above my head, a great education and a promising future. I’ve decided I need to gain control. It’s a lot easier said than done. You can’t just sit down and go “Okay well enough of that! Time to get back to a life with no stress.” It’s all about controlling your mind, and when it’s racing a mile a minute that is not the easiest thing to do. It brings upon symptoms that make you want to curl into a ball and cry. I’m not afraid to say it.

The first thing I had to realize was that this wasn’t life threatening. This was something I could eliminate from my life if I learned how. In order to do that I had to forget about it completely and stop thinking of it. I had to find something that would take my mind off of it completely. I immediately turned to music. People say that music saves your life. I believe that. My life revolves around the melodies, the lyrics and the chords. When I’m singing at the top of my lungs NOTHING can bother me. Some people sit in front of the water and relax. Other people take long walks to clear their head. I’ve always turned my iPod on and lost myself in the music.

The funny thing is I came to the realization that music was going to save me when I turned on “Never Too Late” by Hedley. That has always been a theme song for me. Since the song was first played live in Montreal back in October of 2007 on Mackay street I clung to the lyric “Find a way to smile and never let it get away.” As I sit here, song blaring, I realize how much this band has saved me since 2004. There isn’t a part of my life they haven’t had a massive impact on.

They’re the reason I know which direction my career is going in. They made me realize that I want to spend my life at concerts and surrounded by artists. I chose to attend Trebas because of them and get a job with CONFRONT Magazine as well as Live Nation. They’re the reason I have the best friends any girl could ask for. I became close to people in high school because of their music. I met some of my best friends directly through the band because I started attending shows all the time. Believe it or not they’re the reason I learned how to be sane around the opposite sex. I used to shut down when a guy would speak to me and I spent most of my time being perfectly happy to be single. Then I started attending their shows and making a handful of great guy friends and from there I learned that I had nothing to be shy about. Everything links back to them. My taste in music changes on a daily basis. My favorite bands vary depending on what I’m listening to that year. Six years later I can honestly say that no one will take the top spot from them. I owe so much to their music. I’ve had the chance to watch them grow and in turn I’ve grown with them.

I’m not asking anyone reading this to understand. The only way you can is if music has touched your life in a way that is indescribable. I’ve wanted to write something like this for awhile and I got the chance when their music saved me yet again.

I wasn’t going to post this blog. I was going to keep this as my secret struggle but I finally realized that this isn’t something to be ashamed of. Everyone has something they have to battle with in their life. This is mine. I still have an immense up hill battle. Learning to wake up without being afraid is a big step. Learning how to forget the past and look ahead can be even scarier. I need to get back to being who I used to be. I don’t want to lose myself. All I can do is turn up the music.

I’ll be right here by your side

The past week has been non-stop.

On Monday Jenn picked me up from work and the two of us headed back to my place where we packed enough clothes & food to last us three weeks on a desert island. We caught up with some of our fictional romances and went for a walk by the convent near my house. It was the perfect way to start off this week together.

Tuesday morning we woke up bright and early and got ready to head out. We packed up Jenns car and made just enough room to squeeze Mel into the back seat. My favorite part of our roadtrips is rolling down the windows and blaring good music. We had plenty of time to do that after we had picked up Mack 1’s merch from the Old Port. We got stuck in an hours worth of traffic. We almost left Jenns car behind and walked to Trois Rivieres. On the way there we played a great game of  “Count The Roadkill” and after awhile we changed that game to “How many times can Mel saw Ewwww because of a squashed squirrel?!” We got to the venue and helped set up Mack 1’s merch. We sat around and kept ourselves amused with some “He let us!  We’re responsible! Jenn hoored” jokes. I’ve realized that no matter what situation I’m in I can have a good time with those 2 nutbags. I stood in the back and watched Mack 1 play to a small, but very loud crowd. For Faber Drive we went down to the stage and I was surprised to find out that I still remembered every song on their set list. It’s been awhile since I saw them in concert and he still knows how to put on a great show. It also brought Jenn & I back to our very first show together which happened to be Faber Drive in Quebec City.

About 5 years ago, when I first really fell in love with music, my world revolved around 3 bands: Hedley, Faber Drive & Marianas Trench. Two of those bands have gone on to fill up arenas but Faber’s still making it and while I wish them all the success in the world, it’s nice to remember what things were like back in the day. Those smaller shows where everyone interacted. After the show we finished packing up the merch and the opening band Delta 20 approached us for a picture. They were all hilarious guys and it reminded me of the first time we met the Hot Streak boys. After that we headed back to our hotel room for a very short nights worth of sleep.

The next morning we headed back to Montreal with a few songs on repeat. We went over to Daves to get ready where Jenn popped out a bottle of Peach Chardonnay(tradition on these trips) and we finished off a bottle together at 4pm in the afternoon. We spent a good hour just laughing.  After that we headed over to St-Hubert for dinner with all of the ladies and some serious catching up. Then we went to the Bell Center where we took our seats. Fefe Dobson hit the stage first and while she’s not someone I’d pay to see she’s also not the worst performer out there. Next up was Stereos who I’m so sick of seeing. They have to stop touring with bands I like. Their auto tune made me want to smash my head through a wall. After them was Boys Like Girls. I’ve been a fan of theirs since their first CD but for some reason I never brought myself to a show of theirs. They put on a great show and gave me serious goosebumps when they started to play Thunder. After them Hedley hit the stage. I don’t usually cry during shows but when they came out(Cha Ching), I cried through the entire first song. It wasn’t because I was so excited to see them, it was more because I was so overwhelmed to see them playing for almost 7,000 people. I still remember seeing them open up for Simple Plan back in 2006 and wondering if they’d ever get the chance to play the Bell Center. I feel oddly honored that I can say that I’ve followed Hedley for over 5 years now, before they ever even played their first show in Montreal, and now to see them play for so many delirious screeching’s special. I’m proud of those idiots. They deserve every bit of this success.

The best part of the entire show was during Old School. I grabbed onto Jenn who grabbed onto Laura who grabbed onto Melissa. We swayed together and belted out the lyrics to a song that was “the soundtrack of our summer” during 2007. There’s a moment during that song where the music gets intense and he starts to sing about the days we went crazy and the nights wild and hazy and during that moment I found myself completely forgetting about everything around me. All I was aware of was my best friends holding onto me and the music taking over every inch of me. I turned to see Melissa crying. When people ask me why I go to so many shows, it’s for those moments. Where you truly get lost in the music. That was followed by Never Too Late where we still grabbed each other and danced our asses off. Towards the end of the show Jake sat down at the piano, and like every show, he talked to the crowd for 5 minutes with his heart on his sleeve. “If you promise to stay in our lives, we promise to stay in yours.” We headed out of the venue completely deaf and slightly mute and went over to Radio Lounge where The New Cities were bar tending for the night. The place filled up pretty quickly and within an hour none of us could even move because there were so many people. Tom showed up as we leaned by the bar to get our drinks(Frank didn’t do such a bad job on mine, aside from the fact that it was almost pure alcohol) and he got my attention. It was nice to catch up with him for a few minutes since it had been a good year since we spoke. The ladies and I found a couch by the door and planted ourselves there for a bit until we decided to leave.

The last day of the trip, for me, was to Drummondville. We met up with Jenn at Longeuil again and hit the road. Jenn was deliriously tired at this point and all of us were looking forward to our nice warm beds. We took care of the merch for the show again and watched the entire show from the back. Mack 1 put on another great show and during Faber the ladies and I stood up to dance(and try and stay awake). The led to a nice moment with Faber on stage. During Gget up & Dance the Mack 1 guys joined Faber on stage to dance and every single person in the room was dancing together. It was a neat moment. After that we packed up our stuff and said our goodbyes to everyone. It was an amazing opportunity to meet some great people and to just enjoy time together. It went by way too fast but I’d do it again in a heartbeat. I wouldn’t do it without my other halves though. They made this entire week amazing. I will never forget that hug on the street corner after the show. I love them for that. We ended the trip by blaring Forever on the drive home.

We’re here to make a scene..cuz we’re living the dream….

Young Artists for Haiti

I’ve been so anxious for the Young Artists for Haiti  to release their cover of  “Wavin’ Flag”. I’m in love with K’naans version and this one is incredible as well. I just would have loved to see Josh Ramsay get a solo in it as well.

“Be careful what you say. What goes up s’gotta come back down”

I’m sitting here watching Hedley play in front of 60,000 people at the Olympic medal ceremonies and I’m completely overwhelmed. I remember watching them play for just 100 people on my 16th birthday during their very first stop in Montreal almost 5 years ago. All these memories come flooding back to me whenever I see them play and every single one of them are positive. There’s such a maturity that comes with Jakes stupidity now. It’s been amazing to watch. I’m so fucking proud of everything they’ve accomplished.

I listen to a lot of music but they’re the only band that’s ever been able to make me disappear completely and just escape from every day shit.

I can’t wait until April.